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Soul Loss

Updated: Jun 1, 2019

I’ve had a few soul retrievals by now, each time I felt an old part of me return back into my body. This part had left me at some stage of my life due to a traumatic event. It doesn’t matter how big or how small the event is, if something scared, upset or angered you for instance, your soul can leap out and stay out at a safer distance until its safe enough to return.

It’s a protective mechanism, a way for you to cope with the trauma. At some stage your soul needs to return back to your body in order to make you feel whole again, it may take years to return after the soul feels that the body and environment is safe again, or it may take a visit to a good shaman or spiritual healer.

The planet is going through a massive soul loss and soul retrieval right now, comedian Louie CK explains it perfectly in his interview with Conan about why he won’t allow his kids to have cell phones:

You need to build an ability to just be yourself and not be doing something. That’s what the phones are taking away, is the ability to just sit there. That’s being a person. Because underneath everything in your life there is that thing, that empty—forever empty. That knowledge that it’s all for nothing and that you’re alone. It’s down there. And sometimes when things clear away, you’re not watching anything, you’re in your car, and you start going, ‘oh no, here it comes. That I’m alone.’ It’s starts to visit on you. Just this sadness. Life is tremendously sad, just by being in it… That’s why we text and drive. I look around, pretty much 100 percent of the people driving are texting. And they’re killing, everybody’s murdering each other with their cars. But people are willing to risk taking a life and ruining their own because they don’t want to be alone for a second because it’s so hard.

There are some well-known signs and symptoms of soul loss, if you have been through or going through any of the following, you may well be experiencing this phenomenon. If you are going through any of the signs below- don’t hit the panic button because there are ways to get it back, start by listening to your heart, listening to your body and seeking a spiritual healer, shaman’s in particular deal with soul loss on a regular basis. Click here for a shamanic practitioner in your area.

Symptoms of soul lossYou feel like you’re not worthy and not enoughYou don’t know what you want to do with your lifeYou don’t fit inYou feel lost and disconnectedYour fears keep you from living fullyYou feel unlovable and brokenYou feel like a victimYou feel like life is meaninglessYou often feel helpless, hopeless, or negative. You don’t let people in.

My Soul Retrieval Story: On one of my first visit’s to the shaman I met here in Australia I had a massive soul retrieval. I lay on the floor of the shaman’s room and fidgeted for about 20 minutes until I began to drift into a shamanic state and enter a journey.

It started off with me lying on the desert floor, the desert then filled up with the sea; I felt its coldness and rhythm move up and around me until I was submerged in a vast ocean. I was refreshed and alive and began to swim forward, it was easy and I glided through the sea like we were one, my arms grew long with each stroke, until I was a giant in the sea. I saw myself as an enormous merman and filled the entire ocean. I was strong, fast and powerful and swam down to the bottom of the sea, passed a friendly blue whale that gave me a gift, it was a golden chord, I thanked her and continued to swim along until I found an opening in a cave.
The cave walls sparkled and shown, they were made of violet crystals amethysts that lit up luminous hues all around me. I looked back at the cave entrance and saw giant tentacles blocking the way out, “I guess I’m going further down”, I was happy to keep floating down anyway; I was so in love with all the beauty. Finally the cave came to an end and I found myself in a catacomb of doors and entrances that were ornate with renaissance artwork. I stood there and realized that I was supposed to choose one of these doors, but none of them felt right. But I could feel energy above my head, I looked up, there was no door visible but I could sense a door there and I immediately felt this sense that it was a holy door. I looked closer and discovered it was a sacred hidden door, covered in gems and carvings of animals.
I went through and found myself inside a castle walking towards a windowsill where a noble, smartly dressed white lion-man waited on the other side; I suspected this white lion was the shaman who was working on me or his helping animal. He was all kinds of cool, and was there to let me know I had come the right way and to welcome me.
He guided me through the window to the other side and as soon as I was on the outside everything was different, I was light, bouncy and energetic. I bounced all over the castle, on every possible surface I could find and laughed so hard at how easy it was. I flashed back to a memory of when I was a kid where I wished I could do this all over the house, I thought to myself constantly “I know I can do this- I just have to remember how”, perhaps I was remembering this place.
 The castle was decorated in a medieval style and seemed to be made entirely of all sorts of crystal as I inspected closer. I looked all around me and noticed felt this massive attention from the mountains, they were looking at me, they were very old and wise and their thoughts were formed in a very different way to my own.
Finally I came to half a bridge that didn’t go all the way to the other side, I stood on one end and on the other were two figures; they stood like statues but were alive. They had immense energy and power vibrating and flowing out of them and I stood in awe, I felt as though I had just met two Gods-beings. These two beings held my attention, the one to the left was a hawk-man shaman; he was covered in rags and steel armour and back feathers. He wore a mask of a hawk and carried a staff. To the right was a butterfly-woman, she was half naked, body of armour, also carrying a staff, she was incredibly beautiful, her black raven hair flew around her like knives. They were guarding an entrance, but nothing was behind them except fog.
I stood at the edge of the bridge and thought what am I supposed to do now? An idea came to my mind. JUMP. I looked below and looked ahead, it was a long drop, but this is a journey and on journey’s you are tested, fortune favours the brave or whatever, so I jumped.
I dove ahead of the two beings and in between them into the fog, when I entered the fog space, an eagle eye appeared, it was made of red ruby stones and swallowed me up. As I went through the eye my eagle friend picked me up, within moments of falling and being grabbed I was suddenly going up at incredible speeds, and collapsed into his body.
We threw over the forests covering the mountains; everything was tinted red as I was seeing the world through his ruby eyes. We finally perched on a cliff, still as one being and crouched down to land, petrified wood grew all around us until we were completely covered. We sat there and rested for what felt like years until my awareness shifted and I sensed something outside of me quivering, something was there on the cliff with us, so I decided to remove my tree skin; I pushed through it and felt it crackle and crumble away.
When I emerged I saw a small 6 year old girl sitting in front of me, she was wearing the same outfit I was, I looked at her small face and hands, her shiny black hair and sparkly green eyes. She was me, she was little Deb, so cute and scruffy, loved poured into me like I was touched by god, it was so immense, I cried and laughed and squealed. I held her small delicate hand and saw the dirty fingernails I used to have. I picked her up and threw her against my body, I kissed her forehead and wet cheeks and swung her around, I cradled her and we rubbed noses both laughing with tears in our eyes as we floated off the ground. I looked into her starry eyes and said softly, “you’re coming with me”, and put one end of the golden cord in her hand and the other one in mine, ‘’hold on, we’re going home!”
We flew back to the castle, as we passed through the fog we burst into hundreds of small brown sparrows; I felt their little hearts and wings as my own. We flew to the window where my lion friend waited, and stepped through and I noticed it was just me on my own now, but I could feel little Deb in my heart swirling around. I leaped through the window and took one last look at the white lion; he had done this a thousand times, he was so cool, I’d like to one day have a chat with this guy. I floated back through the crystal cave and my eagle friend grabbed me by the shoulder as I reached the opening, he roared out flames as if to congratulate me and I thought to myself, this is totally a Sebastian and Valcor moment right now.
He then dropped me back into the dessert where I started, I was curled into a ball and got myself up and walked towards a Koala I spotted in a tree. I got the sense that he was tired and thirsty the way his mouth seemed parched, I looked around me to see if there was any water nearby but there wasn’t a drop anywhere and told him that I was on my way out but I’d be happy to go and get him water before I left.
But as I began to walk away from him I remembered that I could bring the water to me! I stood there and jokingly tapped my feet together and called the water with my heart. It came immediately, it filled the desert up higher and higher until it got to a level where I could scoop it into my mouth and squirt it into the koala’s, he was grateful and disappeared and the water became even higher now and as it got deeper my merman tail grew back and I became enormous again. I swam away into the distance, thanked my helping spirits and came back into my body.

The days, weeks, months and years after this event I can still feel little Deb in my heart, she wants to create and is full of innocence and laughter, she is a part of my soul that was trapped on the cliff outside my body for years. Once she returned she and I were brought back to life. I felt energy again, I felt my vitality, my confidence my sass, it all came back.

I’ve had many more soul retrievals since this one, but this is by far my favourite, shamanic journeys are beautiful intimate and magical ways of healing that I personally feel a close connection with.


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